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Christ Making His Home in My Heart, S.C.

To continue a long-standing family religion, my parents chose to be practicing Buddhists. But while I attended a private elementary school, the knowledge of God and of Jesus was planted in my being. This was the beginning of my search for Him. So at a young age, instead of choosing Buddhism as my belief, a desire to know the Lord Jesus and have a personal relationship with Him began to develop.

As the years went by, my ties with different friends led me to one Christian meeting after another. Gradually, though, I grew discouraged and frustrated with an inconsistent relationship with God. I just didn't know how to go on. Often I considered Him, but only when I did something terrible and needed my conscience appeased and the feelings of guilt removed. But I wanted something real with Him, something more deep and solid. So in college, I met some believers who opened up the one thing that had formerly been objective and dry to me--the Bible. To me, it was just a reference book people used to look up words of wisdom or parables to help you in your Christian life. But through fellowship with Christians on Campus I began to really appreciate the Word as a wonderful way to get to know the Lord more deeply. Then I was introduced to the ministry of Witness Lee and Watchman Nee and my knowledge of the Word broadened and deepened. No longer was my view of the Bible that of a reference guide, it became more and more a source of supply and even enjoyment because I was touching God Himself in the Word (Jeremiah 15:16). This continued until eventually the Lord lead me to come to the Full-Time Training in Anaheim after college. It was here that I realized my spiritual experiences as a young person and college student were at best still incomplete. I had only begun to get into the depths of what is hidden in the Word. One particular verse that the Lord gave me is Ephesians 3:17: “That Christ may make His home in your hearts through faith . . .” I began to see that what the Lord is after is my heart. He desires my heart. Previously, I was coming to Him and seeking Him, but I can only gain Him to the extent that He has gained me. In the Full-Time Training my heart is being opened to Him more and more, giving Him room to come in and make His home. There have been, and, still are, a number of things that take up room in my heart, but the more I open to Him in prayer the more access I give Him. This is so sweet and freeing. Day by day, I love the Lord Jesus more. He who is love itself is making His very home in my heart. The Lord is more dear and precious to me than ever.

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